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I hear the word corona million time a day and it started to get boring , but when I sat and thought about it I noticed how much of a blessing it is !!. It gave us time to say ...goodbye .
With the feeling like the world is ending soon but slowly , it enabled you to do that thing you said that you would do it later . But that ''later'' never came . Well it's you chance . Your chance to finally read that book you wanted to read . Your chance to learn that recipie you always loved . Your chance to show how much you love your friends and apolgize to the people your pride prevented you from apolgizing to .
Take your chance and do not let it slip away , please .
If I tell u my dream would u laugh?
My dream is to eat without thinking about what i did like a major crime. To eat without worrying that someone will laugh at me . Mum always said you can't be pretty and fat , and even if you are people will say " aw she is pretty BUT FAT" . She always told me that i am pretty but would be prettier if i lose weight . That i am perfect but if i lose weight i would be more perfect. I can't count how many times she grabbed my tummy to remind me of my excess skin .
I would like to try tge feeling of being skinny one day , to sit down without fixing your blouse not to stick and show you ate fat or put a pillow to hide it all. To take full length pictures and not just selfies . To run , to jump , to toss around on the ground and most importantly to live , to be happy without worrying how do u look like and how do other's view you .
That's my wish . Some say it's superficial but those who say that haven't been through the pain of your own mother telling you that she is disgusted from you , those who say that haven't been told by thier friends in middle school that they can't sit next to them as they are too big . I never was skinny or even slim , i may never be . Yes I hate the way I look, yes I sit in bed every single morning wondering why i was built like that , why God chose this body to me , yes I look in the mirror and I scrunch my face with disgust. My weight isn't superficial, it's a million throbbing scars , it's a hundred sleepless nights , it's a thousand diets . My weight somehow defined me .
One way or another it throughly changed the way I view myself and may be the whole world . If you expected a motivational article , sorry to disappoint . My sole reason of sharing this very intimate article is to find people with the same experinces and people who relates . Thank you .